There are times in life something happens that turns our lives upside down.  One minute you are happy and the next you are in such grief you feel as if you never can smile again.  Nothing could prepare me for the phone call I got on July 4th, 2006. My dad was rushed to the hospital by ambulance. I thought to myself, “How can this be? I was just having a great BBQ with him and our family and he was smiling and laughing and we were celebrating Independence Day together?”   When the doctor told me he had a massive stroke and was going to die, I literally ran outside to the parking lot and fell to my knees, I cried and begged God to give him more time, to give me more time with him.  Six days later we took him off life support. My family and I were devastated. I felt like a part of my heart died with him.  I did not know how I was ever going to smile, to laugh, to be able to enjoy my family knowing I just lost my best friend and father. I eventually went into depression and allowed Satan to win too many battles. It was not just because I lost my dad, although that was the start of my life spiraling downward.  Not good.  One day in my house in Brentwood I fell to my knees and wailed in tears, praying to God, how much more do I have to endure? I begged Him to either take me or help me make it through the pain of it all.  He did.  Here I am today.    


Psalm 13 is a lament Psalm. It starts out with asking God a tough question, we all ask when we are in pain. Basically, when will this end? This passage in Psalm 13 gives anyone who is in pain the permission to share it with others, and to go to God for healing. One cannot heal when they hold in pain. At first, David was like this. David asks God, “How long?” How long will he be without God? How long will this sorrow be in his heart? How long will his enemy prevail over him? As we get to the end of the Psalm, we see David do something we must do in our trials and grief. David trusted in God and He praised God for His love. Notice Vv. 5-6, David writes, “But I have trusted in Your lovingkindness; My heart shall rejoice in Your salvation.  I will sing to the Lord, Because He has dealt bountifully with me.” I was a Christian when my dad passed away. I knew to trust in God but I failed to lean on Him and trust in Him. I failed to seek help from my brethren. I allowed the pain to hurt me in many ways and steal my joy.    


Like David, we must put our trust in God. We must praise Him every day, especially in the storms that come upon us because He loves us and will heal us. God was right there with me during my pain and I know when I fully turned to Him and gave it all to Him, He helped to heal me and show me the joy I had in my life. God loves you so much. If you are going through pain, He is there. Go to Him and trust in Him, He will comfort you and bring you out of it. We can all rejoice knowing we have a loving God who is able to comfort us in our afflictions.




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